three am thoughts
Sometimes its just easier to write until you have nothing on your mind. I rarely have issues sleeping but tonight I just do not feel like quieting my mind.
I think we spend so much time in our mind going through the motions of our busy days that we forget to acknowledge our consciousness and our divinity. When you start to slow down and listen and look, human experience of life becomes so much more intriguing. Though you still have responsibilities to attend to, they don’t have to be all that mundane. Notice how your fingers feel as they type your five page essay, notice the sound of the walls creaking in your room, notice the way you are sitting; how do your feet feel on the ground? It’s all very invigorating. We are living beings that were created out of love, thought, vibration and connection. We are meant to feel connected and loved at all times of our lives.
I am learning to sit with feelings and thoughts at this time in my existence. Everyday I find myself questioning difficult feelings. An example of this is my anxiety: ( why do I feel anxious when I get out of class? Because then I have to do homework. Why does doing homework provoke anxiety? Because if I do all of my work then I will get good grades. Why in the world would getting good grades provoke anxiety? Because then I will graduate college and have to get a job. And that gives you anxiety? Why? Because then I am no longer a kid and supported by my parents…. that’s the actual reason why I was feeling anxious ).
Everyday is a new experience, yet it is ongoing. We are eternal and always have been. We are meant to share and radiate all that we are. And all that we are is love.